So our strange new world continues. Travel restrictions, queues for prescriptions, food and pretty much anything else that people want. And after Boris’s announcement on Monday night, what was my biggest concern? How will I visit Evie’s grave? That was the only thing that bothered me. That I wouldn’t be able to go and talk to her for a while. Not food, medicines or anything else, but to sit in front of her headstone and talk to her. Put that aside and I still don’t care about any of the rest of it.

I feel surprisingly detached from the rest of the madness. Without a doubt i am disappointed at much of mankind for it’s selfish attitude; Evie would have been shocked that others didn’t think the way that she did. I think I have come to the conclusion that a significant chunk of the UK’s population just isn’t very bright.

It has been heart-warming too to see the community spirit that is being displayed though. Our local town council in Melksham has created a community volunteer programme to help with shopping, collection of prescriptions or just a chat over the phone for the most vulnerable. I can see Evie trotting off to the shops to help out.

The world of a bereaved parent is a curious one. Over the last couple of weeks I have been watching the Compassionate Friends closed Facebook page to see how others are facing the challenges that have appeared and the variation is remarkable: I suppose it is nothing more than an accurate reflection of the variety of people that we all are. Some parents are fearful, some angry, others anxious, while others like me are more ambivalent. But one thing binds us together, that the death of our child has changed our view on everything in a way that is beyond the comprehension of everyone else. For those with surviving children I wish you a virus-free few months so that the worry of your child’s health is something that passes you by. For the rest like us with no children, stay safe and if you have a fool-proof way of staying connected to your child if you can’t visit their grave, then please share it.

Stay safe everyone.