To Tree or not To Tree? That is the Question.

Evie absolutely loved Christmas. She loved everything about it, not just receiving presents. To her, choosing and giving presents was just as important, and she was thrilled when she got it right. She loved the time off, the celebratory atmosphere and the overall fun that it involves.

Without her here, Christmas seems pointless. Pats and I will buy each other small presents, and as I’ve already mentioned we will be having a chilli for dinner when we get back from Bath Open Church’s volunteering on Christmas Day itself. Evie always put our tree up and decorated it. When she was ill, she sat in her wheelchair and told me where to put all of the baubles. Last year, one of Evie’s friends decorated the tree instead. This year though we’ve decided not to put a tree up. It isn’t some bah humbug thing, and we aren’t trying to make a point. It just feels wrong to put one up. We’ve put a pink wreath on the front door and that will be the extent of our decorations.

But because Evie loved it all so much, I felt that I needed to do something, but what? So we’ve bought some small decorations for her grave, and have decided to put up a pink Christmas tree in her bedroom. We won’t go overboard as we used to do, but at least it is something. We’re now just crossing our fingers that the ones on her grave survive the weather. It all seemed the right thing to do as she loved it all so much.

So we’ve decide to tree - a bit.